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Friday, March 12, 2010

Lunch with John Rice and Greg Mort, March 09, Inspired Sleepy Dreams poem



John and Greg,

I really enjoyed our conservation in Chevy Chase. John, I would be happy to mentor some of your budding entreprenuers in the Maryland/DC area and I would condider it on honor to speak to your classes in NYC --- particularily the ones for entrenpreuners.

The banter we had about starting up a business and stepping out of the corporate world was really stimulating. Somewhat rare to have a business tycoon, famous artist, and carzy ass mathematicain share their go solo catharsis. The way we were each captured by a sense of destiny, compulsion, pull was intriguing. --- after some period of weighing, evaluating, calculating it seemed each shifted,  from logic to feeling an inxorable pull to follow our respective path.

I thinik we should do something with this. Below is my fumbling attemp to capture some of it, along with the idnetity issues a startup entreprenuer faces. Since  I volunteered to be firest in the barrel maybe you guys could add, refine, expand ... this beginning.

We should teach this stuff to people starting up, I think it would really help big time. It's beatiful, three rafically different cultures of business, art, science;  we triangulate the dreams/tumult that compel one to his own path. The driven social engineer, the artist who's hands capture the heavens, the mathematician who quantifies the unquantifiable..... each step off the edge. And recount their transformational moment when pulled to fulfill a personal destiny.

Here's a sonnet ' sleepy Dreams to compelling Destiny'. I hope it captures a piece of that magic moment when we each realized we had to follow our dream.

Regards,
Tom

ps- Escher had it right: 'I don't use drugs, my dreams are frightening enough'. 

pps --- one of my favorites Thomas E. Lawrence nailed it: 'All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds, wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act on their dreams with open eyes, to make them possible'. 

Sunday, February 21, 2010

My Creative Process ---- March 2010





Creativity: through the eye of an elephant gun


My creativity comes from connecting big problems with math.  I start out tackling a huge problem where I think I can get some traction.  In the problem space I spend many years reading all that I can and trying to fully understand the core essential problem.

My first such effort was studying why software didn't work -- -- why it wasn't rigorously tested, why it had errors, and why it was unmaintainable.  I spent over two years doing this and doing nothing else.  In parallel with the problem domain I search for mathematical results that in some way is connected to the problem and would provide some traction.  In the case of software I published a graph theoretic complexity measure after two such years -- -- it became a national standard.

I have spent five years studying the AIDS genome.  This resulted in an AIDS characterization as a mathematical group that would explain the underlying mechanism for the production of AIDS mutations.

Recently I have spent about 18 months studying software security threats and viruses.  This resulted in a algebraic reduction technique that I am in the process of publishing.  I also presented this technique to a software audience in Paris on March 9.

The beginning of this process is a bit schizophrenic being emerged in parallel problem spaces and mathematical spaces.  As the process continues I try to whittle down the problem space to both it's essence and something that's tractable.  At the same time I consider various mathematical models that have underlying simplicity and rigor and look in some way connected. Typically there are very many connections but a breakthrough has to provide a fresh new insight and map onto something operational that solves the problem.

The underlying process is a duality between working very hard and then letting go.  It's like interval training for an athlete --- run full blast, walk for a while, run full blast....  And then when I let go and all is quiet it announces itself.

 It's also an emotional roller coaster -- -- when I find a mathematical connection it's euphoric -- -- when I then find it has no operational use I feel like I'm wasting my life.  Very often after the biggest disappointments and the accompanying depression will be followed by a huge result, wherein I refine the focus and what I thought was an obstacle leads me to the truth.

Here's what drives me.  Rather than science I feel like this is a quest for an underlying truth -- -- wherein I can characterize a big problem with mathematical rigor and get a breakthrough result.  It feels like Columbus on the high seas discovering a new continent  --- the truth was always there, the excitement is finding it.

My next step is to go out and tell the world --- always to the practitioners never to the academics.  The practitioners know what works, the academics certify the math after the fact.  The reinforcement I got lecturing about software complexity gave me the confidence and momentum to build a successful company.


In short I look for big messy expensive problems being addressed with anemic slingshots -- -- and  lug in my elephant gun.


My creative spark in writing poetry is quite different -- -- I aim at the big elephant in the room.  Poetry lets me address the unaddressable in a light way.

Thoughts about Paris ----- March 10


Thoughts about Paris


The city of light never disappoints.  What I like the best is dressing up on a cold day and walking through the her streets.  I spent hours walking through the artist community called the Latin quarter and the left bank where her winding narrow friendly streets with cafés and restaurants fill the senses and spirit.  And then her romantic meandering streets open up to spectualar magnificent views of Notre Dame and the Louve.

It felt wonderful to take a trip to Paris just to sample and connect to the place most called home for artists. And I thought often about our group and how each of us would be so at home here and excited to share the experience.  

Although alone I walked with many companions.  You guys, our newly formed homegrown artist community sharing our excitement and trials pursuing our dreams.  I also felt the ghosts of Hemingway and Sartre.  And a camaraderie that I visit their venerable place of culture to deliver a lecture of my own creation -- -- mathematics not literature, however my own creation nonetheless.  I felt a companionship of  shared kinship -- -- business associates are colleagues, but fellow artist are more like blood brothers.  When I read of their struggles, sacrifice, obsession, rejection .... I feel connected to their spirit -- -- this characterizes my life and career even though it resulted in a business.  It was much more the new mathematical creation than the business enterprise.

I write this to both reflect on Paris but also to share with you.  There is something really special about our new group and I feel a strong bond and connection to it.

Tom

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Launch issues for entrepreneurs --- gut check before jumping --- Oct 2009




Written for John Rice's MLT organization --- for aspiring entrepreneurs.
These are several of the vision and gut check issues that both enable and dissuade entrepreneurs at launch time. They are highly personal and individual yet common for those about to launch a new business. Most entrepreneurs think they're alone struggling with these issues; not true, even highly successful established entrepreneurs early on had the same demons and dreams. 

These are the gestalt items to tackle before crossing the Rubicon --- the go/nogo concerns that will trigger the entrepreneur to stay put or jump. For many, the crossing is a true Rubicon, if it works there’s no going back. No incrementalism here, these are the gestalt for a full-force committed jump into a new journey.

Among turning points this is it; it will redefine how you live your life. For better or worse you’re now totally in charge.  No more excuses about the ‘job’, it’s yours to define. Beyond the career, you’ll be forced to grow personally in ways not imagined, mostly for the good. The new journey will amplify and give a pulpit for your strengths; and also make Achilles heels out of your weaknesses.  No more being numb in the corporate world, welcome to life in the fast lane   --- you’re partaking of the American dream.  Big stakes here, you can become top dog in town or be first in the unemployment line.

This list is compiled by several entrepreneurs who personally had to come to terms with and reconcile them. If not acknowledged now many of these issues will haunt you later   --- best to deal with upfront and try to rectify or at least acknowledge.

Think of this document as a traffic light.  Some issues 'red', if you haven't yet reconciled stop till you do. Other issues a cautious 'yellow', to pause and consider. Some a go-ahead 'green', these are the enablers; a signal you really have something.


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You might think this is the beginning of your journey. No so, your journey began with the dream you could make a difference.

Is your undertaking a dream of a lifetime or a business instrument to make money? With much good luck, planning, and good council a dream has a chance; if money is the main motivation you'll be thrown out of the saddle at the first bump.

Your spouse or significant other better be on board and an enthusiastic supporter.  There will be many sleepless nights, you'll need encouragement by the person next to you.

Share your dream with other entrepreneurs and you may get support, encouragement, and maybe some sage advice.  Share your dream with fellow coworkers and they'll tell you how good the present company's medical plan and retirement are.

Try preselling your service or product to a customer. If you get rejected either the product isn't good enough, or your story is not prime time, or the price too high. Whatever the rejection is, work it until you’ve got it right, and then try another presale. Value the rejection; it's a free education and saving you a lot of money. Keep at this till you have a customer signed up; give them a discount for the delivery risk of the presale. If you're getting presold customers you've really got something --- green light.

It takes a bold vision, heartfelt inspiration, and cold-hearted pragmatism; you'll need to master all three. One essential step is to translate your vision into incremental building steps that are both achievable and an acid test of your idea. This bootstrapping is an essential philosophy; succeed at level one, then level two, etc. Each level providing both the product validation and the experience and revenue to start at the next level.

Financial bootstrapping. As difficult as it is, the most simple means to seed capital is money you save or raise yourself. Dealing with investors is like quicksand; it first takes a finger, then a hand, then your whole arm, .... Often to sway investors it takes unrealistic projections and the entrepreneur is constantly reassuring and appeasing investors. Most people I know tell me takes a full half of their time. If at all possible use your own seed money and use that half of your time and energy to grow the business.

One way to financially seed the new enterprise is to save money and earmark it to fund the early months. It's good to know exactly how many months of a base your stash will support until the first stream of revenue. For example, you may initially have three months covered. This certainly focuses attention on exactly what sales events you need to stay in business. If some business does come in you can think in terms of extending the base, maybe from three months to five. Think of the base as your lunch runway, as things work the runway gets longer and longer.


One of the most difficult issues is dealing with the fear of leaving a paying job and launching your new business. There are all manner of different issues that evoke fear and become a barrier to creating a new business. Among these are not having a steady paycheck, not having a job title or position, not having the corporate structure for motivation and reinforcement, not having the feedback from a peer group.

Initially, the corporate structure is one of the main reasons entrepreneurs leave their jobs. What's overlooked at the beginning is, as distasteful as it seems, a boss and peer group provide immediate direction and motivation. The entrepreneur has to be sure he's self-motivated and can provide his own direction because the new enterprise at first will feel like a vacuum -- -- -- and the entrepreneur has to supply his own getup and go. This can be a lonely experience when you see your neighbors drive off to their jobs and friends in your social circle talk about their job title and position. The euphoria of initial success will overcome the sense of being stranded; however, if the first few months are a real drought it is tough to hold your self-identity together.

One of the key ingredients to entrepreneurial success is to think big. What's the service or product that would make a game-changing difference? What service or product would add breakthrough social value or dramatically increase corporate efficiency?  Now the trick is to translate this big idea into a practical way to build the products or deliver a service -- -- -- no easy trick. If the idea is big enough the translation into a deliverable product is the real creative leap. Don't worry if the first few initial attempts don't work. Rather than scaling back the idea to something less than exciting stay with the challenge of packaging or delivering the service in a practical way. The point is don't give up. Many successful entrepreneurs have iterated this creative leap hundred of times, with hundreds of apparent failures. And then finally it clicks -- -- -- there's a way to deliver the service and the enterprise is enabled. From outward appearances the entrepreneur appears brilliant -- -- but he'd be the first to tell you it failed a couple hundred times before it worked. Every time it fails it will refine your concept; so considerate it an education -- -- -- but don't give up on the idea!

Thinking big and working at the delivery of a high-value product or service is the key ingredient successful entrepreneurs have. Many established entrepreneurs that are tenfold more successful than you or I are in that position because they think big about high-value and breakthrough services. They're ten times more successful but not ten times more intelligent! Nor do they work ten times more hard! The difference is they think ten times bigger, and their creative genius is how to turn a huge idea into a practical product. 




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